Sometime I Feel...

like this.

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I have nothing to say. Just wanted to share this picture with you.

Another Friday

My Grandma went in for a massive surgery Wednesday. That's her. This was taken last Monday before the surgery. The doctors took a tumor the size of a quarter out of the upper lobe of her left lung. Tested it and found it to be cancerous. They removed the entire upper lobe (which luckily is the smallest lobe of the lungs) and tested other parts of her for cancer. Everything came back negative... which is GREAT. I spoke to "Granny" yesterday and she says she is feeling fine. The day after surgery she was already out of her bed and pacing the room looking to get home to her cucumbers, basil, garlic and beloved flowers... Doctors say it will be at least a week before she can leave. I'm so happy everything went well.

I'm finally out of my funk... thanks to granny's recovery. This weekend I have no big plans. My grandma said not to come and see her, so except for doing some laundry and staying cool indoors I'm doing nothing. We are supposed to have a heat wave with HIGH humidity. So I plan on staying indoors in the air condition ALL weekend.

I'll probably take out my camera and try and get creative. Because of the humidity the clarity of the air will be zero, so I probably wont be able to get many city shots from my window. no biggie... I'll just shoot things around the house and spend some time on ebay looking for things I don't need... things to just add to the clutter that I call my life.

so I hope y'all have a good weekend and if you live in the tri-state area, stay cool.

Friday Ramblings

It's Friday. I have plans to go to the Jersey Shore this weekend. Haven't decided if I'm leaving tonight or tomorrow morning... Honestly? I'll probably leave tomorrow morning. I'm thinking about leaving at like 4 am so I can be there for sunrise... Get some shots, and then head over to my grandma house for breakfast... Now, I know I probably wont do that. I know I'll probably just leave tomorrow around 8 and get there and go to granny's house... but I have good intentions... and we all know where that leads, that leads to pavement on THE road that leads to H-E-L-L. But they probably aren't working on it this weekend, cause y'know the government is shut down so they can't work... (see, I'm eluding to the fact the New Jersey is very much like Hell.)

Anyway... While driving homee from work yesterday I noticed the clarity of the atmosphere (or sky) and I noticed the basically half moon... and I noticed the lack of clouds... and I thought, when I get home the 2nd thing I'm doing is setting up the camera with the monster lens and taking shots of the moon... the first thing I'm doing is going to the bathroom... so I did those things, in that order, and here's the best pic I could get of the moon... as soon as I had everything set up, wouldn't y'know it... clouds rolled across the moon and I couldn't get the clear shot I was going for... but whatever. it looks good... enough.

I then switched to my kit lens... 18-70mm, and took some shots of the city. I wasn't 100% satisfied with any of the shots, but I chalk that one up to my Funk. Everything looked a little too grainy, or a little too blurry, or a little too dark, or a little too not perfect... and the view was absolutely amazing too.



But the purpose of this post was to discuss my daydreams whilst taking the shots of the moon... I couldn't help but think about space and the time continuum... well just space... and other planets... and how cool it would be if man kind could just make it through these terrible days we are going through now, and somehow manage to start settling other planets... after the cure disease and hunger,and poverty, etc... its a long way off but I have faith that it is possible... IF WE CAN JUST STOP KILLING OURSELVES - both in wars and at home...

I can't understand where all this intolerance and hatred comes from. I mean yeah I have anger and hatred but I don't let it affect my respectfulness of other people, complete strangers... the only time I'm disrespectful, is when someone disrespect me. If we all lived by the golden rule, we'd all be a lot happier and healthier... and a lot closer to the utopian dream I have in my head.

Funk

I've been in one of my "funks" lately. Brought on by thinking to much, working too hard, and not playing hard enough. But mostly because of thinking too much. I bought all these new toys for my camera and then suddenly I'm all "camera'd out".

I'm going away this weekend to see my grandma, hopefully that will lift my spirits. Plus to top it all off I'm taking Monday off of work. So that will definitely help... AND the boss will be off next week, so again, more helpful things... What all that really boils down to is this: I'll have a four day week and I'll feel some sort of "worth" at the office. Which should translate into a much easier time playing with all my new toys.

The new toys I got are:
1) a fisheye lens - which I fell in love with and have asked it for it's hand in marriage. I'm still waiting for a response.

2) a Lens Baby (http://www.lensbabies.com) - super cool little lens. totally manual, down to actually physically having to change the aperture. the only in camera change you can make is the shutter speed. It's going to take some time to learn how to use this properly. Every shot I've taken with it has been okay at best. I plan on doing a little photo shoot of my granny this weekend with it.

3) circular polarizing filters for my two "normal" lenseseseseses.... and that totally rocks my socks and all that junk.

I hope you all had a fantabulous 4th of July... mine was nice and relaxing.... just took pictures of all the fireworks...

this is just one. I used the fisheye for it, but I also have some non-fisheye shots. which I posted in one of my buzznet galleries.